[ There is just some faint glimmers of a choked back sob as he tries to keep himself in check. He doesn't want to upset Luminair or Rei and he feels embarrassed to even let this much emotion show. But gods he missed her. Especially now, especially after everything that's happened. She would know what to say and do to make things right. She always did. He missed Elise and whenever he tried to think about her that portion of his soul Apep inhabited throbbed and ached with pain. Even after all those years the pain never leaves and he knows it never will. It makes the loss constant and unrelenting that way. Loss that was once guilt and still is in someways.
He gets his breathing back down to normal again before he responds. ] I-I'm s-sorry, Rei. I-I didn't mean to...to dump all this o-on you.
[ He shakes his head and looks back at Luminiar who has sadness and concern in his posture. The little dragon gives small, low, chirps which are dotted with sadness and concern. He doesn't like seeing Helios like this at all. Helios will sit back in his chair and close his eyes pushing back the tears that strain to come out. No. He will not let that happen. Not right in front of Rei of all people. ] I just. I miss her.
[ More than he can ever convey with words. He brings a shaking hand to his chest and grimaces in pain. ] She-she was...everything t-to me. And I... [ no not him. It was an accident. It wasn't his fault. ] ...he t-took her from me.
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He gets his breathing back down to normal again before he responds. ] I-I'm s-sorry, Rei. I-I didn't mean to...to dump all this o-on you.
[ He shakes his head and looks back at Luminiar who has sadness and concern in his posture. The little dragon gives small, low, chirps which are dotted with sadness and concern. He doesn't like seeing Helios like this at all. Helios will sit back in his chair and close his eyes pushing back the tears that strain to come out. No. He will not let that happen. Not right in front of Rei of all people. ] I just. I miss her.
[ More than he can ever convey with words. He brings a shaking hand to his chest and grimaces in pain. ] She-she was...everything t-to me. And I... [ no not him. It was an accident. It wasn't his fault. ] ...he t-took her from me.