It doesn't change the fact that she's gone. [ Or the tremendous guilt he has over it. But having spoken about this to a few others has helped...if only a little. The words come out hollow as he speaks them almost as if he's far too tired to even evoke the emotions they would normally convey so readily and powerfully. He was tired though. Tired of everything, of Apep, of this damnable pain and how his past always seemed to catch up with him. He was far too tired for a man his age and in that small moment it showed. ]
A fool. [ He lets out a mirthless laugh at that. ] I've been called that so many times after she died. I can't h-honestly say they were wrong either. [ He doesn't even sound bitter about it because he's accepted it as a truth for far too long. ]
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A fool. [ He lets out a mirthless laugh at that. ] I've been called that so many times after she died. I can't h-honestly say they were wrong either. [ He doesn't even sound bitter about it because he's accepted it as a truth for far too long. ]