[Fenimore thinks that tomorrow begins very well, with waking up entangled with her girlfriend and sharing a slow beginning to the day together. She could stand to have more days start like that.
And then with the beach party she got to see Rei in a swimsuit, which was actually mildly startling. Fenimore's had a chance over her time in Luceti to get used to the swimsuits most people use, even if she still wasn't entirely clear on why it was so much more socially acceptable than walking around in your underwear when a lot of them covered about the same amount of skin. But she's never seen one on someone she's this attracted to and with whom she nearly saw even more of than that the night before. Wow. That's. An experience. A part of her is tempted to just jump Rei right there and then and screw the beach party.
But she knows that, if she did, it would just end up like the previous night, or, at the very least, it would sour the experience. Rei might accept Fenimore scars and all, but Fenimore doesn't accept herself and that is getting in the way. It's not a problem that's going to go away anytime soon -- Fenimore's not sure if it's ever going to completely go away. But Fenimore thinks that if she shares why she feels the way she does, she might be able to open up enough to Rei to be able to show her body to her without feeling disgusted with herself. She hopes, at least. She really hopes. She wants to be able to be with Rei more intimately, for reasons both romantic and selfish.
She waits until they've returned to the shrine after the beach party (which was kind of weird on Fenimore's end with that game and all) and also after Rei has changed out of the swimsuit because that thing is all kinds of distracting. She doesn't wait long after Rei has gotten changed, though, because it would be easy to get caught up in other conversations avoid talking about it.]
Um, Rei. I...I think I should talk to you about last night. Or, um. About the things I didn't tell you last night. If it's an okay time for you.
[She looks both nervous and awkward about it. She doesn't open up about things like this unless she's practically cornered into it, so she's not sure how to start it of her volition.]
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And then with the beach party she got to see Rei in a swimsuit, which was actually mildly startling. Fenimore's had a chance over her time in Luceti to get used to the swimsuits most people use, even if she still wasn't entirely clear on why it was so much more socially acceptable than walking around in your underwear when a lot of them covered about the same amount of skin. But she's never seen one on someone she's this attracted to and with whom she nearly saw even more of than that the night before. Wow. That's. An experience. A part of her is tempted to just jump Rei right there and then and screw the beach party.
But she knows that, if she did, it would just end up like the previous night, or, at the very least, it would sour the experience. Rei might accept Fenimore scars and all, but Fenimore doesn't accept herself and that is getting in the way. It's not a problem that's going to go away anytime soon -- Fenimore's not sure if it's ever going to completely go away. But Fenimore thinks that if she shares why she feels the way she does, she might be able to open up enough to Rei to be able to show her body to her without feeling disgusted with herself. She hopes, at least. She really hopes. She wants to be able to be with Rei more intimately, for reasons both romantic and selfish.
She waits until they've returned to the shrine after the beach party (which was kind of weird on Fenimore's end with that game and all) and also after Rei has changed out of the swimsuit because that thing is all kinds of distracting. She doesn't wait long after Rei has gotten changed, though, because it would be easy to get caught up in other conversations avoid talking about it.]
Um, Rei. I...I think I should talk to you about last night. Or, um. About the things I didn't tell you last night. If it's an okay time for you.
[She looks both nervous and awkward about it. She doesn't open up about things like this unless she's practically cornered into it, so she's not sure how to start it of her volition.]