[She takes a deep, uneven breath and lets it out slowly. How she escaped is a much easier tale to tell, which is a little relieving, though she still feels tense and upset from the rest of it, leaving her with a tight headache. She doesn't move any closer herself when she notices Rei start to move closer, but neither does she move away and she grips Rei's hand more tightly in return.]
Not long after I...became the last one [and thus was the one being experimented on] another Ferines was brought to the cell next to me, named Shirley. She rescued me -- Shirley, and her brother, and Walter. If it wasn't for them, I... [She swallows hard.] I nearly didn't make it, anyway. But one of the officers gave Shirley medicine for me.
[She doesn't actually know who administered that medicine when she was unconscious -- it was actually more likely the officer, Stingle, but she doesn't like to think of it like that. There's hatred in her voice as she says "one of the officers." Even though he saved her life by stopping the soldiers from killing her and treating her wounds ("showing off," as the soldiers put it), she hates him just as much as the other soldiers who had no such second thoughts -- maybe more, because he had the means to save the others who did die and he did nothing, even aiding the army that did this to her. She feels that might be worse.]
...I hated her, at first. Her brother, Senel, wasn't really her brother. They were just acting like that when they were in hiding. He was a human, and she was in love with him. A Ferines in love with a human, after everything they had done to us? I was disgusted.
[Her lips twist in what is supposed to be a sardonic smile -- look how that turned out for her -- but she's having trouble managing any form of smile right now, so it just looks off. It's a part of her past she would have usually been reluctant to admit to Rei, at least without a lot of reassurance that this was something she no longer thought at all, but after sharing so much of the grim parts of her past, it's easier for it to just slip out.]
She tried to tell me that he wasn't like the soldiers in red, that humans aren't all the same, but I refused to believe her and I called her a traitor. But even after everything I said and did, when Senel and his friends came to rescue her while we were being transferred, she gave herself up to the soldiers to stop them from catching me again, so that he'd find me instead of her. And instead of immediately going after Shirley like one of his friends suggested, he took the time to rescue me first. And I started to realize that Shirley might be right, after all.
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Not long after I...became the last one [and thus was the one being experimented on] another Ferines was brought to the cell next to me, named Shirley. She rescued me -- Shirley, and her brother, and Walter. If it wasn't for them, I... [She swallows hard.] I nearly didn't make it, anyway. But one of the officers gave Shirley medicine for me.
[She doesn't actually know who administered that medicine when she was unconscious -- it was actually more likely the officer, Stingle, but she doesn't like to think of it like that. There's hatred in her voice as she says "one of the officers." Even though he saved her life by stopping the soldiers from killing her and treating her wounds ("showing off," as the soldiers put it), she hates him just as much as the other soldiers who had no such second thoughts -- maybe more, because he had the means to save the others who did die and he did nothing, even aiding the army that did this to her. She feels that might be worse.]
...I hated her, at first. Her brother, Senel, wasn't really her brother. They were just acting like that when they were in hiding. He was a human, and she was in love with him. A Ferines in love with a human, after everything they had done to us? I was disgusted.
[Her lips twist in what is supposed to be a sardonic smile -- look how that turned out for her -- but she's having trouble managing any form of smile right now, so it just looks off. It's a part of her past she would have usually been reluctant to admit to Rei, at least without a lot of reassurance that this was something she no longer thought at all, but after sharing so much of the grim parts of her past, it's easier for it to just slip out.]
She tried to tell me that he wasn't like the soldiers in red, that humans aren't all the same, but I refused to believe her and I called her a traitor. But even after everything I said and did, when Senel and his friends came to rescue her while we were being transferred, she gave herself up to the soldiers to stop them from catching me again, so that he'd find me instead of her. And instead of immediately going after Shirley like one of his friends suggested, he took the time to rescue me first. And I started to realize that Shirley might be right, after all.