[Fenimore feels a shiver run up her spine. It's not that the response is unexpected -- Rei had seemed just as into it last night -- but actually hearing it is an entirely different experience from guessing it. She's glad to be able to make up for that frustration, but that's a fortunate side-effect rather than a reason wanting to. The only reason she actually needs is that she wants to do it, too, and she's found her own frustration in holding back all day, knowing that she needed to have this conversation first. It's not enough to solve her issues and she knows she's still going to be self-conscious of her scars, but it is enough for Fenimore to know (and feel, which is harder) that Rei loves her and finds her beautiful regardless of her scars and her past -- though she thinks of it as "in spite of." Accepting that it's not "in spite of" will take longer, but this much is enough so that the self-consciousness won't grow into the jumble of negative emotions that had swallowed her last night.
She manages to turn even more red and squeezes Rei's hand again, lightly.]
Good. I'm...glad. I feel the same way.
[A lot, for sure. ...She kind of regrets that she said this now, when she's still not fully ready, because there's a part of her that just wants to go right now and it's going to take a lot of willpower to restrain herself until she knows she is ready.
But restrain herself she does. The evening goes on, in that lazy and tender way, and she does enjoy that time spent with her girlfriend. Still, a few hours later, she takes a hold of Rei's hand again and tells her that she's ready. Having to start by talking about it rather than just letting her feelings carry her away leaves her with more of a sense of nervous trepidation to begin, but it doesn't take long for her passion to sweep through her like it had at the beginning of last night, and then....]
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She manages to turn even more red and squeezes Rei's hand again, lightly.]
Good. I'm...glad. I feel the same way.
[A lot, for sure. ...She kind of regrets that she said this now, when she's still not fully ready, because there's a part of her that just wants to go right now and it's going to take a lot of willpower to restrain herself until she knows she is ready.
But restrain herself she does. The evening goes on, in that lazy and tender way, and she does enjoy that time spent with her girlfriend. Still, a few hours later, she takes a hold of Rei's hand again and tells her that she's ready. Having to start by talking about it rather than just letting her feelings carry her away leaves her with more of a sense of nervous trepidation to begin, but it doesn't take long for her passion to sweep through her like it had at the beginning of last night, and then....]