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火野レイ (Rei Hino) ([personal profile] faithfulflame) wrote2014-06-18 11:18 pm

Fourteenth Prayer: A Rekindling. [Video/Action]

[It’s been a while since Rei could even find the time to make a broadcast over the network, and given her encounter with Anakin Skywalker the last time she’d offered to do flame readings she’s not going to be offering that today. Instead, she’s got a question, and now that her leg has gotten back to normal, there’s also a bit of housekeeping to take care of before some very, very important plans happen. As well as some admissions and requests to take care of.

So, early in the day, she addresses the journal with a forced smile, because one the questions is a little embarrassing. Normally she’d probably have just talked to Yukiko and Yu, but the Inaba teenagers have both seemingly departed now…which directly relates to the other subject at hand, in fact. Ami being gone didn’t help, of course.]


Video:

Hello everyone, this is Rei Hino. I’m afraid to say that most of the people helping me tend to Tsukino Shrine have departed Luceti. If there’s anyone who has free time and would be willing to help me maintain it, I would really appreciate the help. Some of the work that needs to be done simply needs more hands to be done. I’d be willing to repay anyone willing to help with things I’m able to make. If you’re interested, please let me know either here at the shrine or through the journal.

And secondly, I was wondering if anyone had some insight on some exercises for getting back a leg into shape after an injury? My leg was hurt badly recently, and I’m still a little shaky at times, enough so that I’m not comfortable with normal physical activity beyond walking. I don’t want to strain myself, but I would like to get back to normal as quickly as possible.

Thank you in advance for any help or advice.

[And then she closes the journal out.]

Action:

[Later in the day, Rei heads out to visit two very specific people. Raine Sage and Fayt Leingod can expect visits. Raine by Sailor Mars, and Fayt by Rei herself.

After that business is taken care of, Rei hits the shops and starts to gather up some things. Clothing, boxes of food, board games, and pastries in addition to food stuff and a bottle of wine. All the things one needs for an evening alone with her special someone.

And by nightfall, Rei’s got Tsukino Shrine all prepared for her promised evening with Fenimore. Some food, a present, futons, and all the things they might need for the next two evenings. Hopefully it will be a peaceful, uninterrupted night!]
blessingone: (all this feels strange and untrue)

[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-26 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore doesn't understand and she might normally be curious, but she doesn't care at the moment. She's much more interested in returning to the kiss.

Her own hands start slowly trailing southward down Rei's back before it really registers what Rei is doing with her hands. They are beginning to tentatively venture into below the belt (below the obi?) territory when she realizes what Rei is doing. She breathes in sharply through her nose -- as close to a surprised gasp, albeit a small one, as she can get while still kissing Rei -- but she isn't unhappy with this discovery. Her mind is too muddled to really process exactly where such a thing would lead; all she knows is that she likes where it is going and her heartbeat is managing to beat even faster in excitement. Moving more on instinct than thought, her hands reach up to do the same.

She's...not entirely sure how they're tied, though. Her first attempts to try to unfasten Rei's obi are smooth and gentle, but she's pulling on the completely wrong part of the bow. It's going to take her three or four attempts to find it, each try becoming a bit more fumbling and desperate, but left to her own devices she'll still eventually figure it out.]
blessingone: (it's not enough to stay surrounded)

wow my iconset is so inadequate for this haha

[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-27 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
[She blushes, embarrassed to be caught fumbling where Rei is being so smooth about it. But she's grateful to being guided and the way that it so clearly is giving her permission to undress her has its own thrill, as does when it is pulled free.

Fenimore's own restraint is long gone by this point, but her plans for where her hands will go next are derailed along with the rest of her thoughts as Rei kisses her neck. Her neck is quite sensitive, as she's noticed when Rei's previously stroked it while they were kissing, but having it kissed is something else entirely. Her breath catches in her throat and she groans as she leans her head back to better bare her neck.]


Rei....
blessingone: (as minutes take longer to break)

[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-27 07:49 am (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore makes no secret that she is enjoying this, making quiet pleased sounds every time that Rei does something she particularly likes. There may be another good reason to do this in a place as isolated as the shrine rather than an empty apartment if Fenimore turns out to be so vocal about the entire thing, even if she has yet to be loud.

She wants to be able to do to her girlfriend what her girlfriend is doing for her, to make her feel as good of things as she is feeling, but her options are limited in this position and she has no desire to stop Rei doing what she's doing early. She does remember her hands again, returning them to motion as she works to remove what barriers remain between her and being able to remove Rei's yukata. Her fingers are a little clumsy, as distracted as she is, but the motions are sure. She may have not understood the obi when she'd first tried on her own yukata, but she'd figured out how to put on the rest of it well enough to know how to undo the procedure. When she reaches the collar, she slips her fingers underneath, stroking gently across the nape of Rei's neck before ghosting around her shoulders towards her collarbone. The motion begins to open up the top of the yukata just a little, and Fenimore hesitates in indecision for the moment between trying to open it more or merely exploring beneath with her hands. As she considers her choices, she continues to stroke from Rei's neck to a little below the collarbone.]
Edited 2014-06-27 07:49 (UTC)
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-28 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
[As the yukata slides down her shoulders, it will eventually reveal the mottled blotch of an old burn on Fenimore's right shoulder. There's a few spots between her collarbone and the beginning of the curve of her breast and one spot at the top of her arm that suggests that the burn used to cover a larger area, but the skin in between these spots and the main blotch has since healed.

Fenimore hasn't noticed this, no matter how much she had previously been worried about her scars since they'd talked about this being a possibility. She is far too distracted to think of that now, her mind clouded by the desire to feel as much of Rei as she can and the desire to have Rei do the same in return. She returns the kiss every ounce as passionately as she slowly moves her hands over Rei's shoulders to push aside the material.

She breaks the kiss only long enough to breathe:]
I love you. [And then she is eagerly kissing down Rei's jawline and then down her neck. Partway, she stops just long enough to whisper Rei's name so close that her breath can be felt against Rei's neck before continuing towards where her neck meets her shoulder.]
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-28 07:14 am (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore freezes as she feels Rei's hand over the scar, almost wincing as she becomes suddenly re-aware of it. All of the worry she'd had over Rei seeing her various scars had come back and it breaks through her desire-addled state -- which is quite the feat when she'd been so completely lost in passion. It hadn't broken the mood for her entirely, but it had put a damper on it and had left her stomach feeling twisted in a knot. But...Rei isn't saying anything about it, even though she must have noticed. Maybe she didn't think it was such a big deal, at least for this one.

After no more than a couple of seconds, Fenimore takes a deep breath and forces herself to stop thinking about her scars and what her girlfriend might think, returning to the task of peppering her girlfriend's neck with kisses. Though the worried knot doesn't leave her stomach, it doesn't take much for her excitement and desire to return: not when she was seeing and feeling and kissing parts of Rei that had previously been always under clothes, and certainly not when she was feeling her girlfriend's touch on places that no one had touched her before.

Her fingers trace small circles on Rei's back just below where her hands rest on those bare shoulders as, with deliberate slowness, she begins to move her kissing lower than Rei's neck. When her chin rustles the fabric of the yukata, she lingers, exploring the immediate area with her lips, as she pushes aside more of the yukata to reveal a little more skin with that same slowness, her hands never completely leaving contact with Rei's bare skin. She's finding it nearly impossible to maintain the leisurely pace, as parts of her are screaming with impatience to see and touch more of her beautiful girlfriend, but the pace is helping her return to her previous level of passion. And, well, she's hoping the anticipation may be exciting Rei as well.]
blessingone: (I will be desperately awaiting)

[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-28 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[Driving Rei a little mad is exactly the result Fenimore is aiming for, to build the passion even higher behind that dam of restraint, so that when one of them releases it, it will come flooding out. Her own restraint is growing tenuous, and she shivers at Rei's touch and hearing her beautiful girlfriend say her name with such desire.

But then Rei's hand is running over her scars again and she tenses, feeling a wave of revulsion for her own body sweep over her. She doesn't think about the scars much normally, content to leave them hidden under her clothes, from herself as much as from the rest of the world, but what that really means is that she's let it stew in the back of her mind for years. Now, though, with her body slowly being revealed and with Rei's hand on the scar, she's feeling extremely aware of each one. Some of them have healed over the years, but there's still a couple on her legs, one running up just above her hip, and a few on her arms, especially a particularly large and ugly one on her left arm. And then there's her back: many of the scars there have healed over the years, but there are still the two long, deep ones running nearly the whole length of her back that she wonders if will ever heal. She's aware of them, and they make her feel ugly and flawed. And then she looks at Rei -- as far as she can see, her girlfriend's skin is flawless and she's absolutely beautiful. It excites her and yet, at the same time, it makes her a little jealous as well. She knows she shouldn't, but she can't help it.

But Rei isn't saying anything. Maybe she doesn't mind, although, in her current mindset, Fenimore can't understand how. She trusts Rei to be honest and upfront, so maybe she should assume that's how it is, but she can't help a little feeling in the back of her mind like she's waiting for the other shoe to drop. And, somehow, she manages to simultaneously feel stupid and petty for feeling about herself this way and especially for that jealousy. Rei isn't acting like she minds. She's just the one hung up on it like this.

She grits her teeth for a moment. She wishes she were better about this, because she does want to continue. Despite the onslaught of negative emotions, she's still desperately turned on. She wants it so badly. It's just harder to enjoy the moment through this swirl of emotions, especially since dwelling on the scars is only making it easier for memories of where they came from to try to poke through. If only she were normal....

She needs a moment before she'll be able to face continuing kissing down Rei's skin when both lust and envy are fighting it out inside. She takes another deep breath and then moves up to capture her girlfriend's lips again, kissing hard and holding her tightly, trying to burn out these twisted feelings in the heat of passion.

But she's not sure it'll work.]
blessingone: (god is wearing black)

[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-29 05:15 am (UTC)(link)
[It had been an incredible moment, one where every nerve seemed to sing at Rei's touch and where she'd felt such incredible joy and love on top of the lust. But, while that desire remains, it's being choked by the negative emotions flooding her. She could still continue, and perhaps some of it she would still enjoy. But it no longer feels right. She has no psychic powers, but she feels like there's something off, like something has changed in Rei, too, even if she can't be as certain through her more mundane senses.

She returns the renewed kiss for a few seconds, just as desperate, in the hope that this is going to pass. Eventually, though, she brings her hands back up to her girlfriend's shoulders -- this time, to push her away. There's almost no force behind the push: only enough for Rei to feel it. She breaks away.]


I'm sorry. I -- I can't do this right now. I -- I'm sorry.

[She can't even look Rei in the eye right now. On top of everything else, she's now feeling like a bad girlfriend for having to do this to her. She feels the need to explain herself, to tell Rei that it's not her, it's Fenimore, but she doesn't know how to say it just yet.

Fenimore doesn't apologize much, at least not in so many words. Usually, she only does it over something major that she feels directly responsible for, or when she's feeling particularly vulnerable. Right now, she's feeling both.]
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-29 05:58 am (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore doesn't answer immediately. Her first instinct is to say no. She doesn't really want to talk about it. In the four and a half years she's been in Luceti, she's kept this part of her a secret from nearly everyone -- the only two people she'd told anything to had already pieced together enough to guess most of it, and they'd just come off a shift wherein they'd believed that they were family for over a week. And it had been a far less charged moment when she had. For most people, she would take the opportunity to say no.

But...this was Rei. Rei, who always spoke the truth and had shared one of her most important secrets with her. Rei, who had told her that she thought of Fenimore as honest. Most importantly, Rei, who she loves. There's a part of Fenimore, a part that she's let decide a lot of her actions, that wants to only show Rei her best sides to impress her. But there's also a part of her that knows that that only works for so long. If she tries to hide this, it's not going to get fixed. Maybe a part of her -- a fairly large part, if she's honest with herself -- wants to do these things with Rei because it feels wonderful and she is extremely attracted to her, but there's also that part that wants to become closer to Rei and become more intimate. That second part isn't going to work if she keeps holding back so much of herself. And, in the long run, neither is their relationship. And she wants it to work. If she really loves Rei, and if she wants Rei to really love her, she can't keep all of her secrets.

It's still really hard, though.]


I -- it's hard to -- I don't really know how to say it.

[She'd tensed a little when Rei laid her hands on her forearms, but that tension is easing out. It is comforting, as is Rei's expression, though she keeps changing from meeting Rei's eyes to looking away and then back again.]

It's just...I didn't really want you to see my scars. The ones you did, and the ones you haven't seen yet. They make me feel -- like there's something wrong with me. I try to pretend they're not there, but when you touched them -- I can't. And I feel...ugly.
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-29 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore doesn't entirely know what to think about that. Some of it she is relieved to hear and it helps to soothe some of her feelings. Some of it she can't agree with at all. And some of it manages to do both at once. She's not sure how that works, but her emotions are a whole mess of confusion right now. The hug, she does appreciate, even if she doesn't return it, but she is at the same time glad that it is a loose one. She needs that little bit of distance right now.

As Rei finishes speaking, Fenimore's body starts to shake a little.]


I'm -- but I'm not tough. There wasn't anything triumphant, or honorable, or -- I just hid. I was scared and I hid, and I let them kill my friends and everyone else because I didn't want them to pick me.

[She shakes her head.]

I'm not like you. I'm not a solider, I'm just -- I was scared and I was lucky. I didn't do anything to be proud of to get these scars. And I hate that they left their mark on me, and I hate that I can't do anything about it, and I hate that I can't do anything about them. I don't want to remember anything about it, but I can't forget it and I hate it!
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-30 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore actually chuckles at the second head comment, though there's a timbre to it that suggests that she was in danger of crying. Still, Fenimore doesn't cry easily and she takes enough comfort from Rei that the worst she gets is watery eyes. Taking a deep, shuddering breath, she blinks away most of the wetness, though she remains a little shakey.]

I wish it wasn't a part of me.

[She doesn't feel strong or especially beautiful right now. But she does feel loved, and that helps, at least a little. She's still feeling quite down, but her emotions are a little more under control. She tries to immitate Rei's method of pulling up the yukata with a shrug, but, if anything, it sags a little lower on one side. She definitely doesn't have the trick of it.]

I'm sorry I ruined the moment. I wanted it, but....

[This time, the shrug is a much smaller motion, intended for expression rather than trying to move the yukata. She couldn't help it, but she does feel a bit bad even so.]
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-30 02:04 am (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore does her best to return the smile, though it's not nearly as bright as it might usually be. Closing her eyes, she rests her cheek against Rei's hand and takes a deep, somewhat shakey breath. By the time she lets it out, she's completely stopped trembling.]

Maybe you're right.

[The maybe is for the learning -- she feels like she should have told her before Rei found out just by seeing the scars -- as she knows that Rei is right about there being other chances. She tells herself that she should give Rei more of an explanation than she has. Maybe not the full story, but at least an outline. But she doesn't want to face that right now. She's too tired, emotionally.

She's not sure what else to say, so, after a moment, she opens her eyes and reaches up to take Rei's hand. Moving it away from her face, she hugs her girlfriend, the movement slow and soft, and rests her head against her shoulder.]


...I love you.

[Because, everything else aside, she wants to make sure that is clear. She might not be able to believe everything Rei's told her, but she does appreciate how much Rei cares for her.]
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-30 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Fenimore nods. Right at the moment, her first reaction to thinking about the party is to not go and just spend the day hiding in the shrine, but she knows that she will feel better enough after a night's rest, especially one with Rei, that she will still want to go.]

Yeah. I'd like that.

[She gives her girlfriend a gentle kiss on the cheek. When she leans back, her smile is a little warmer than it had been, even if it was still small.]

Thanks.

[She doesn't specify exactly what she's thanking Rei for, and she's not sure exactly what it is herself. But she does know that, even if she's still not entirely okay, things could have gone a lot worse, and she's grateful for Rei's part in making sure it didn't go worse.]
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[personal profile] blessingone 2014-06-30 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
[And then the happy music started playing. Fenimore slips in after her, nestling in close.]

I hope it is. Though even if it isn't, that won't affect the most important part of the day.

[Which is to say, their time in the shrine, since it won't matter if it rains then. Even if it didn't end the way she would have liked, she still is glad they had done so and she hopes that tomorrow night will go well, too. She hesitates for a moment before giving Rei a kiss on the lips, short and soft.]

Good night, love.

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